Projects

I am one that needs projects to do. Thanks Da as I've gotten that from you!!

Unfortunately I can't decide which project to do out of my listing. As it is summer I think it should be an outdoor project, but yet it is hot & maybe if I replace some curtains inside it might help keep things cooler, let alone put curtains up!

So my conundrum is which to do...I think I make a decision then the next day I change it!! Frustrating for Kol because I keep changing. But I've come up with a basic deck design for the backyard, a rough measurement for a wee fence in the front, ideas for curtains in the front room, a call into a plumber for help with our basement bathroom, and calls into the city for rules & regs in regards to our larger pond in the front.

Depending on if we do the pond, then the wee fence will be done first. But the city if may say we need a high gated fence based on the depth & gallons in the pond...sadly when I called the main boss who knows the rules was at lunch. So, I get to call in a couple of hours again.

So...anyone know a good plumber??

Urgh

I've become very agitated as of late. In regards to work I've finally made a decision and am sticking to it, as it is better for Kol & I. Sadly my old boss is finally calling to offer me a position with his company. If he would have called 2 weeks ago I would have jumped, but now I have to decide how and when I'll tell him I can't come anymore.

The part I hate is disappointing people. I know that this will be a great disappointment to the guy and I feel bad, but its kinda like he waited too long. Currently I'm avoiding his phone calls until I get the courage to tell him the sad news. If you can't tell I'm not good with confrontations...especially disappointing/sad ones.

Requiem to Hair

We shall not forget you!
Nights blissfully spent warmly wrapped within thy locks.
Wispily flying with each breadth of wind
Tormenting those who have angered us
with direct hits to their heads.

But do not fret, we will meet again
in a few months or years…
Until then, bless you and your new home.
Love Locks of Love as we loved you,
Warm the new heads that you will befriend.
Oh ode to thee hair; whom we will miss!!

Yes I did chop my hair...it used to be near my bum, now it barely hits my shoulders...if it does at all.

But hey! Change is good right? And hopefully somebody can benefit from the chunk of hair I no longer use.

Iffy Times

Lately it seems like I keep changing my mind. At first I was totally bored with work and so frustrated. Which don't get me wrong, it hasn't changed, I still don't do much with work, but I've come to terms with it and am ok.

At first I was set and determined that if I was offered a new job with my former boss that I'd jump at the opportunity but as of late I really start to wonder...will I really jump or hang out here? Where I'm at with current job I can get away with Murder and still be employed. I can miss work, take days off, come in late, leave early and its not a problem. The guys are very laid back. I can probably even miss a whole week of work and be ok. If I moved to a new job I'd start all over, and more than likely be stuck at work until 5 where now I leave at 4 or earlier if I'm really bored. And its been kinda nice leaving at 4...anywho back to my "iffy" mind. I just can't decide lately as I can see pro's and con's for both jobs.

More than likely I'll still just sit it out and see what happens.

Friendship Ramblings

Friendships are a wonderful thing. They can be traumatizing, glorious, and tiring not to mention many other aspects that my mind is not thinking of.

Looking back on the many different friends I’ve had has made me realize that I am horrible at keeping in touch with people, let alone my family. I can count on one hand friends that I’ve been close to, that have helped me through the hardest times of my life. Some are gone; others I've lost touch with, yet others are still near. The saddest part is those that still live relatively close...in Utah... I don't reach out and keep in touch with them. Somehow as I was going through life my mind interpreted talking to people and asking questions as being intrusive, and is should not be done. I am trying to break this habit, but it’s not going very well.

I have two friends who recently had a child, and still I have not gone to visit them. I keep saying…well I don’t have their address besides they wouldn’t want a visitor with a new baby…which a part of my mind believes yet the other part is screaming as loud as it possibly could (mind you it is barely heard) that its malarkey!! People love having visitors, and they don’t consider them a nuisance. Yet again the louder portion of my mind says that.
I would like to say thank you to all my friends, and my family. You mean so much to me and I am so thankful that they stick with me. Both during the easy times of life and they trying ones which I tend to hide I would love to say I’ll be better and call at least each month, or write, but I’d hate to disappoint anyone. But I will try, I won’t promise anything but I’ll try.