Most days are good at home. What with the change of me being a stay at home mum and sometimes feeling like I'm a single mum. (Those day's are only when hubby is in school.) I've noticed a trend with me. I tend to write/post when mylife seems at the hardest and I can't decide to cry from it or scream.

The last few months we've had the bonus of a severance being paid every two weeks. Well, that is ending and we are truly a one income family and it scares me!  I know I'm still contributing to our family by raising our two kids but it is still wierd. Like I am not contributing enough. I grew up with both my parents working, to me that is the norm, not one staying home.

I am trying to still do things for me  (so I still can have an identity). Just recently, ok, this week. I have started excercising. Wow, did it kill me, my muscles till hurt and it as only a 30 minute workout!!  I'm still trying to convince myself of waking up earlier, which is so not me!! Definitely not a morning person. But, I'm trying to convince myself that this will give me the quiet time I need to myself to keep my sanity.

I do miss the time it had with my hubby, but I knew going into this that it would be a rough couple of years while he finished school. I didn't think about the after math. What happens when he's done with school. I just hope things work out. Even though I don't see a solution right away I know that there will be one. I have to keep believing that this change is better for our family. Even if I do have many days that I just want to cry or curl up in my bed & hide from the world.

We have done a few things around the house. We painted a bathroom and even made a chalkboard/magnetic dinner calendar for our kitchen! Aside from that us girls are still trying to. Come up with a few more crafty things to do.